In this moment of waiting...

In this moment of waiting,

I didn’t set your heart to wait with so much fears, worries, and loneliness.

I’ve set your heart, your beautiful heart to wait with SO MUCH MORE.

So much more providence,

So much more love,

So much more faithfulness,

So much more strength,

Even so much more beautiful things that I’ve prepared and would be very happy to POUR and GIVE IT ALL to you.

Full and overflowing, remember?

In this moment of waiting,

TRUST ME.

"Waiting patiently, she received what God has promised her," - Hebrews 6:13

To that guilty feelings

Buat setiap perasaan bersalah yang muncul di setiap apa yang kamu makan;

setiap rasa sedih,

gagal,

takut,

bahkan ngga aman dan ngga berharga,

Kamu nggak sendirian. 

Hampir seluruh wanita, ngga peduli seberapa kurus/gemuknya mereka, mengalami hampir semua perasaan-perasaan yang kamu rasakan. 

Too much social media, magazines, videos even healthy lifestyles have consumed our minds about foods, health, fitness and those stuffs... then changed it not the way God wants it to be. 

SO MANY WOMEN AND YOUNG GIRLS HAVE BEEN THROUGH ALL OF THESE. 

AND NOT ALL OF THEM HAVE REALIZED HOW IT IS PARALYZING THEIR REAL WORTH AND VALUE.

Stop feeling guilty of your foods. 

Stop being controlled by foods, comparison games, and all exercises. 

Jesus said,
"You shall not live by bread (foods) alone, but by every Word that comes from My mouth," -Matthew 4:4

This verse explains you everything. 

No kind of foods can define or even harm you. Tuhan menciptakan makanan dan memberikannya padamu untuk memberkatimu, menyehatkanmu. Dia juga memberikanmu anugrah untuk menikmatinya dengan bijaksana, nggak berlebih dan nggak kurang - tetapi CUKUP. Mengabaikan anugrah ini membuatmu kehilangan kontrol atas makananmu, sehingga kamu sulit makan dengan CUKUP dan mensyukurinya. Mengabaikan anugrah ini merusak hubunganmu terhadap makanan, memberikan emosi-emosi negatif setiap kali kamu makan, membuatmu merasa bahwa hanya makananmu yang dapat memberimu rasa aman, menjaga & memelihara hidupmu sesuai yang kamu mau. Pada akhirnya, mengabaikan anugrah ini membuatmu kehilangan kepercayaan bahwa dari semula, bukan makananmu tetapi Tuhanmu yang memelihara dan menjaga hidupmu. He is your only Creator. Dan pengabaian ini pada akhirnya menghancurkan identitas sejatimu di dalam Dia. 

Kamu ngga hidup dari makananmu, tetapi kamu hidup dan dipelihara dari Firman Allah. Dan Firman-Nya menegaskan, Dia yang take care hidupmu, membuat hidupmu dan tubuhmu sempurna dan berharga. Bukan makanan yang kamu atur, perjuangkan, usahakan sedemikian rupa. bukan pula segala usahamu dan rencanamu.

Lupakan bagaimana kamu harus hidup sesuai makanan-makanan yang menurutmu aman, lupakan dan tinggalkan rencana-rencana bodohmu, usaha-usaha bodohmu untuk mempertahankan tubuhmu ataupun memperjuangkannya menjadi lebih baik. Kembali pada anugrah-Nya, karna anugrah-Nya membuatmu mengerti bagaimana kamu harus percaya kepada-Nya diatas makanan dan usahamu. anugrah-Nya membuatmu mampu makan dengan cukup dan dengan benar. Hanya anugrah-Nya yang sanggup mengembalikan identitas sejatimu, keberhargaan sejatimu :)

Do Not Fear

Isaiah 41:10 - AMP

‘Do not fear [anything], for I am with you;
Do not be afraid, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, be assured I will help you;
I will certainly take hold of you with My righteous right hand [a hand of justice, of power, of victory, of salvation].’

The reasons for you NOT TO FEAR:

1. Because He is with you - anytime, anywhere, even at any circumstances; good or bad, happy or sad, joy or pain, trust or fear. God is staying with you. 
2. Because He is your God - He’s all YOURS. You have Him. Fear may have imaginations to attack you, but you have God to overcome them. 
3. Because He will strengthen you - You will be stronger and stronger in each trial. This is a promise. 
4. Because He will help you - Anytime you need it, God is there helping you. 
5. Because He will take hold of your hand with His righteous hand - He’s holding your hand wherever whenever you go, no matter what happens beside you, or in front of you; He is holding you with the hand of power and victory :)

Notice who is the ‘I’. It is GOD, not you. you are not with your own self, but God is with you. You will not strengthen and help yourself alone, but God will do both for you. You are not alone… God FIGHTS it for you to the victory. He certainly will do everything to help you out of your fear. And your job is to simply trust Him. Wouldn’t He be very happy knowing you put your trust on Him?

The next time FEAR knocking your mind, remember this: God will hit it for me and He is holding my little hand right now. I’m just a little girl with a super big God. 

Reassurance

The Exchange

Today I cried to God, again and again,

with all of these tiredness and hopelessness.

I gave my heart back to God,

throwing it away recklessly;

with all the disappointment,

all the heart-broken, painful moments, hurting words,

all my uncontrolled fears and worries which has haunted me for long… 

I sat under His feet, dwelling, asking, even begging God to fix my heart

My heart was cracking everywhere.

He looked at me, deeply.

and instead of taking and fixing my heart, rather, He stepped on it. 

It was shattered all around me, all around Him.

He then smiled at me, said that I don’t need that broken heart anymore.

He opened His hands, giving me a new heart… and it is His heart… 

rather than telling me to change and fixing my heart, He creates the change; the new heart.

And His heart perfectly fits the hole inside my soul.

I've finally come to realize that I don't need to fight so hard,
or to keep my head up high, trying to be really strong in my own strength.
I don't even need to fight this much to protect my heart from being broken.
He gives the exchange, 
and now it is His perfect love surrounding, protecting my soul; helping me to love like He loves
it is His heart covering me.

Ever got the feeling when you’re finally found a shelter and hid inside it, avoiding the heavy rain outside? That’s exactly the relief feeling as I’m now hiding in His heart, and even having it inside my soul — perfectly… securely. 

"Be at rest once more, oh my soul, for the LORD has been good to you..."  

Psalm 116:7

Let it be Your Lovingkindness

Lamentations 3 : 22-28

It is because of the Lord’s lovingkindnesses that I am not consumed,
Because His [tender] compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
Great and beyond measure is Your faithfulness.
“The Lord is my portion and my inheritance,” says my soul;
“Therefore I have hope in Him and wait expectantly for Him.”
The Lord is good to those who wait [confidently] for Him,
To those who seek Him [on the authority of God’s word].
It is good for me to wait quietly
For the salvation of the Lord.
It is good for me that I should bear
The yoke [of godly discipline] in my youth.
Let me sit alone [in hope] and keep quiet,
Because God has laid it on me [for my benefit].

Let it be your lovingkindness, O, God,

the only thing that matters the most to me

the only thing that hugs my soul very tight

that I’m not consumed with any other things.

Let it be your lovingkindness, O, God,

the only thing that makes me see,

how deeply loved, blessed, and secured I am

in the arms of my loving Father.

Let it be your lovingkindness, O, God

the only refuge for my soul

the only thing I am waiting and longing for,

in this morning of struggle, fear and despair,

and every morning, throughout my day… 

Let it be your lovingkindness, God… 

And let me sit alone in hope and keep quiet,
Because God has laid it on me. 

The Beauty of Trust

The beauty of trust is seen when you know how He actually feels to see your trust. Here is the thing: God is very happy with your every trust on Him :)

Ngga ada yang lebih menyenangkan Tuhan daripada kepercayaanmu kepada-Nya.
Dalam setiap kepercayaanmu, penyerahan hakmu (tentang apapun), Tuhan begitu disenangkan.
Inilah persembahan terbaik dan begitu harum di mata dan hatiNya, simply karna kamu memberikan apa yang paling kamu inginkan, atau mungkin kamu takutkan; cuma ke dalam tangan Dia :)

"Memberikan Tuhan kepercayaanmu yang utuh dan manis untuk memelihara hidupmu, segalanya tentang kamu, adalah kepercayaan yang menyenangkan hatiNya."

Kalau Tuhan begitu disenangkan dengan penyerahan hak dan kepercayaan kita, bagaimana mungkin kita ngga bersukacita dalam setiap kepercayaan kita kepadaNya? bagaimana mungkin kita ngga bersukacita waktu kita menyerahkan setiap keinginan dan ketakutan kita, mengijinkan hatiNya yang penuh cinta bekerja buat hidup kita?

Percaya berarti mengijinkan cintaNya bekerja memenuhi hidup kita, bukan kita lagi yang berusaha keras untuk jaga atau kontrol hidup kita; tapi Tuhan sendiri. Percaya, sampai hidup kita ngga lagi diisi oleh ketidakpuasan, ketakutan, kekhwatiran yang ngga perlu... dan cuma diisi sama cintaNya yang ngga pernah berhenti bekerja.

Trust His heart :) 

Percaya sama cintaNya,
Percaya sama hatiNya,
dan berbahagialah dengan kepercayaan itu :)

A Gift of Surrender

Penyerahan hak dalam hidupmu membuktikan bahwa segala hal yang kamu serahkan tidak lagi menjadi hal-hal yang layak diperjuangkan atau dipertahankan.

Penyerahan hak menjadi bukti nyata bahwa hak tersebut bukan lagi segala-galanya,
bukan lagi bahagiamu,
bukan lagi sukacitamu,
ataupun rasa aman dalam hidupmu.

Ketika kamu menyerahkan hakmu, untuk segala egomu, keinginan dagingmu, kamu sedang mempercayakan hatimu kepadaNya, bukan pada hal lain yang selama ini entah membuatmu 'nyaman' atau justru sakit.

Pada akhirnya, penyerahan hak mengungkapkan dengan tegas dan berani bahwa hanya 1 yang perlu dan menjadi bahagiamu; segala-galanya dalam hidupmu - yaitu Tuhanmu sendiri :)

Philippians 3:8Amplified Bible (AMP) 

"But more than that, I count everything as loss compared to the priceless privilege and supreme advantage of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord [and of growing more deeply and thoroughly acquainted with Him—a joy unequaled]. For His sake I have lost everything, and I consider it all garbage, so that I may gain Christ,"

I count everything as loss; for He is my everything.

The Best Form of Loving

When people are asked to think of their best experience with the love of their life, we can actually guess their answers: those sweet moments... those romantic words... those million of roses... those beautiful gifts... and all and all, the best of the best that they can possibly think of or imagine.

Ever thought how heart-breaking and forgiving can actually make the best form of love?
that's the actual proof that we truly love someone, when we forgive them after hurting our hearts. the only measurement of love. which is to love without any measurements at all.

Far before we can make the best form of love through forgiveness,
Remind yourself the first, best moment when you know God loves you.
How did you know He loves you?
Simple. Because that time, you knew that He forgave you from your sins.

You have received, even felt the best form of love by realizing that God forgave you first; you are forgiven from your sins which hurting God... and knowing that, you learn that forgiveness will always be the best version of loving someone.

it is not those sweet moments,
not those romantic words,
or those million roses,
or those beautiful gifts,
or every beautiful thing that makes you happy.

But it is forgiveness.
To love with the best form of love is to keep forgiving the people you love, even when it hurts. it hurts because you need to forgive. Forgive as He has forgiven you.... and continue to love them....

Forgiveness make the best form of love, so make them feel and receive it :)

Guard Your Heart

It is impossible to keep people from doing certain things to us, just because we try our hardest to protect ourselves from getting hurts. Especially in relationship, we often fear too much that we try to run away by restricting other's freedom. I've done too much on this, and the more I tried to keep it, the more I fear... the more I lost... the more it hurts.

We can never control people. It will only make us fear more, worry more, and paralyze more by what they may do. 

The only thing we can do is to keep and to guard our own heart and mind, fill it with what is true, what is pure, and lovely (Phil 4:8-9)

Eventually, we will end up finding that guarding out heart and mind brings more freedom, happiness, and life worth living. Eventually, what others do will no longer matter. We find the only essential thing for our own living: a life not depended on what others do to us, yet a flourishing life of our own peaceful heart.

So guard your heart, for the springs of your life comes from it.

The Analogy of Trusting

“Your daddy is standing in a swimming pool out a little bit from the edge. You are, let’s say, three years old and standing on the edge of the pool. Daddy holds out his arms to you and says, “Jump, I’ll catch you. I promise.” Now, how do you make your daddy look good at that moment? Answer: trust him and jump. Have faith in him and jump. That makes him look strong and wise and loving. But if you won’t jump, if you shake your head and run away from the edge, you make your daddy look bad. It looks like you are saying, “he can’t catch me” or “he won’t catch me” or “it’s not a good idea to do what he tells me to do.” And all three of those make your dad look bad.

But you don’t want to make God look bad. So you trust him. Then you make him look good–which he really is. And that is what we mean when we say, “Faith glorifies God” or “Faith gives God glory.” It makes him look as good as he really is. So trusting God is really important.

And the harder it seems for him to fulfill his promise, the better he looks when you trust him. Suppose that you are at the deep end of a pool by the diving board. You are four years old and can’t swim, and your daddy is at the other end of the pool. Suddenly a big, mean dog crawls under the fence and shows his teeth and growls at you and starts coming toward you to bite you. You crawl up on the diving board and walk toward the end to get away from him. The dog puts his front paws up on the diving board. Just then, your daddy sees what’s happening and calls out, “Johnny, jump in the water. I’ll get you.”

Now, you have never jumped from one meter high and you can’t swim and your daddy is not underneath you and this water is way over your head. How do you make your daddy look good in that moment? You jump. And almost as soon as you hit the water, you feel his hands under your arms and he treads water holding you safely while someone chases the dog away. Then he takes you to the side of the pool.

We give glory to God when we trust him to do what he has promised to do–especially when all human possibilities are exhausted. Faith glorifies God. That is why God planned for faith to be the way we are justified.” 

― John Piper

Reading this whole words, I get goosebumps all over my heart and soul. Imagine that even a small act of trusting Him over anything else, you're giving glory, all glory to Him. Too often we think that we need a huge sacrifice, a huge kind of act to give Him glory.... but even TRUSTING does give Him all glory. This is well said.

Keep trusting, again and again. God takes pleasure in our trusting to Him :) 

No measurement of beauty

There is no measurement of beauty, no exact tools to define your worth.
The first moment God created woman, He said she was all good, without any measurement. Without any scale. Without any make up. Without fancy wardrobe.
She was already good, the way she was. Too good, as He had put beauty in everything she was.

God loves creating beautiful things, and He creates beauty in each woman.
He creates beauty in you. Just the way you are.
And you don't need to try hard to protect your beauty,
either with strict diet,
or heavy make up tools
either with fancy clothes,
or beautiful heels.
either with all your thoughts, worries, and securities that you have been preaching to feed your soul these days, just because you want to measure your beauty and to keep your beauty safely.

Stop doing and start trusting.

God has the beauty within you, and God protects your beauty Himself.
Why?
Because your beauty belongs to God.
Your worth is found in Him,
and it should be returned for His glory. it is not yours.

I have His kind of beauty inside of my soul

And His beauty is forever secure in me

I will trust Him and not my foods

I will trust Him and not my thoughts,

not even my scale

not my own definition and measurement

I will trust Him and nothing else

And I will use this beauty so others can see,

how beautiful my God is. 

There is grace....

I've never felt a moment when I do really, desperately need the one essential thing He always have for me... His grace. These past times, I had always known that I need grace, in everything I do, I know I'm gonna need it when I get problems, and in times of troubles, simply when I ask, He gives. But that's it. As for me, there is no more about grace other than this cliché thing.

Now,
There is this truth: You'll never know where you stand til you realize that you are not standing anymore. you are falling. and the pain feels real. it hurts like it was never before. and these days, it comes to me like I'm drowning. in the sea of nowhere, and I just knew I'm not standing; even before I realize I've been falling, and drowning so deep.

Before this happened, I've always thought that I'm completely okay, there is nothing wrong with me. Sometimes I have problems but it's all feel okay, and I just thought God is here. Period. But then... the moment I know I've been falling so hard, I know He is still here, standing; but I'm not there with Him.

I've been walking all alone without Him. that's why grace feels cliché in my heart. even my soul cannot grasp what it means to experience grace.

finally all I know is this: I'M DROWNING AND I AM IN CONSTANT NEED OF GRACE.

This literally happened once all i feel was emptiness. loneliness . sickness. tiredness. hopelessness. I was depressed. I didn't have any reason to feel good and enough about myself. Didn't have any to be proud of. everything was missing. I lost my pride, my stand, and myself. I've been thinking I've lost His grace the moment I wasn't standing with Him anymore, the moment I felt completely okay with myself.

I am in constant need of grace.
But He shows me; that grace isn't there only in my times of troubles or needs. grace is here, inside of me, and everywhere, and every moment... and I never lose it.

There is grace in everything I do.
There is grace in whatever I eat,
grace in whatever I wear,
grace in my walking,
grace in my running,
grace in my speaking,
grace in my struggling
There is even grace in my smile,
and grace in my eyes, in my hopeless tears.
There is grace in my love towards myself,
and my love towards others.

There is beautiful grace in my face. and my skin. my body. my feet. my hands. and more grace inside my soul and my heart. grace in everything I am, in everything I do.
grace in who I am these past days. grace in who I am today, and in who I am tomorrow.
that I don't need to ask or to beg Him for His grace.
I'm in constant need of grace, but my life and everything in it is a grace already.
I have grace the moment I don't have anything.
I may not stand with Him these past days, but now I know His grace stands, and now grace is standing and fighting my battle of pain. And I'm gonna win. Grace will put everything back to its places, the place where I belong: His love, His arms. and His providence.

"My grace is sufficient for you..." - 2 Cor 12:9

To love the way He loves

"Mengasihi diriku sebagaimana Dia mencintaiku adalah mengerti dan percaya bahwa apa adanya diriku sudah begitu menyukakan hati Tuhan, ngga perlu ditambah atau dikurangi.   

CintaNya buatku begitu ingin untuk menyukakan hatiNya dengan apa ada nya aku, dengan segala kekurangan dan kelebihanku. 

CintaNya buatku berhenti menuntut dan meminta lebih, karena aku tahu, aku ngga perlu meminta apapun, mengubah apapun dari diriku untuk Dia mengasihi aku. 

CintaNya buatku mengerti, betapa kasihNya selalu baru setiap hari, mengalir dari dalam setiap sel-sel darahku; terdengar begitu lembut dalam setiap detak jantung dan denyut nadiku; dan memancar keluar, sempurna, lewat apa adanya diriku yang begitu menyenangkan hatiNya :) 

CintaNya buatku melihat, betapa aku ngga akan pernah punya alasan untuk nggak mengasihi diriku; betapa apa adanya diriku ini akan selalu berhasil mengukir senyum yang manis di wajahNya."

God's kind of beautiful

I believe everyone has their own beauty.

And I have my own, which God has added to me (as it was supposed to be) while He created me. 

and it's not the kind of beauty that all the girls probably have. 

it is not the kind of beauty that the world might have always wanted, from times to times. 

this is literally a God's kind of beauty. 

The perfectly perfect love upon me, that makes me beautiful, the way God says it has to.

All the thoughts and the love He is pouring over me, they are all overflowing. 

I have never realized it this much before, and never will I get to understand how much they are.

and how much they have been working until now, and surely forever. 

God has never stopped. and He would not stop to do it. 

He wouldn't stop to remind me how beautiful I am, how perfect I am in my imperfection. 

He would never get tired of this. 

And I know, it's His job to keep checking His to-do-list everyday if He has reminded me of this simply great thing, or whether some time He has to push Himself a little hard to remind me, to make me believe in His beauty upon me. 

There are times when I can simply believe in this kind of beauty.
But even the most calming sea will always has its own waves.
It's hard, most of the time to believe that I have my own beauty, beside all my circumstances.
and I believe this is what everyone, every girl has always been fighting for. 
But God understands. *remember His to-do-list? :)

I am not designed like the others

I don't have what they are all may have

and maybe I will not have what they'll always have.

I don't know. only God knows what I have now, what 'am going to have soon or later.

But one thing true, 

I'm glad He made me realize that I have to believe that I'm enough.

and I'm glad He teaches me to trust my belief, to trust my own beauty. 

It's not me that could make myself beautiful. It's God. 'cause it's not my kind of beautiful. The beauty that God have added to me, it's simply God's kind of beautiful. 

Strengthen

"Dan hatinya diperkuat dari hari ke hari, karna ia percaya akan janji Tuhan, karna ia menanti-nantikan Tuhan." 

 Great things come if you don't mind waiting. Psalms 27:4; "Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart," 

STRENGTHEN 💪💫

"They who trust Me will not only do what I'm doing but even greater things!" -John 14:12

Anchored, blessed, and strengthen in love. 

Your beauty is a gift

Your beauty is a gift; a blessing.
Kamu adalah bukti bagaimana Tuhan memberikan kecantikanmu sebagai anugrah di dalam hati, roh, dan jiwamu. Cantikmu bukanlah sesuatu yang harus kamu perjuangkan untuk kamu mendapatkannya. Toh segala usahamu akan sia-sia, semakin kamu berusaha menjadi cantik seperti yang dunia inginkan, semakin kamu ngga pernah merasa cukup dengan diri kamu sendiri.

He pours down all His love,
into your body,
your face,
your skin,
your heart,
and your soul,
making you beautiful,
FULL AND OVERFLOWING.

Trust the beauty within you.
Makanan apapun, diet, olahraga apapun ngga boleh mendefinisikan cantiknya kamu.
Semua usahamu ngga akan bisa menambahi atau mengurangi cantiknya kamu.

Mengerti dan pahami kalau Tuhan pakai semua bagian tubuhmu, inside and outside, all the details in you, hanya untuk mengekspresikan cintaNya buat kamu. Disinilah kamu harus menemukan cantiknya kamu. Lalu kenapa kamu harus khawatir dan ngga percaya sama diri kamu sendiri? :)

As for me, it's comforting to know how He uses all of me, my soul, my heart, and even every details of my body only to reflect His graciously love. I begin trusting the beauty within me. I let God's love to be in control of my beauty.

Let God's love to be in control of your beauty, too :)

Karna cantikmu adalah anugrahKu,

cantikmu adalah tentang bagaimana aku menumpahkan seluruh kasihKu kepadamu,

dalam hatimu, rohmu, dan jiwamu.

cantikmu adalah anugrah yang ngga akan bisa hilang, ditambah, atau dikurangi. 

dan prosesKu yang menyempurnakan semuanya. 

The Love Vitamin

Jesus' love has poured out  through  the cross
giving you the only nourishment for your soul
a love vitamin that nourishes all of your heart,
your soul,
and your body.
to create in you the authentic beauty,
revealed in His graciously love

A beauty that is more than a perfection
more than your physical appearances
your skin,
your hair,
your waistline,
your thighs,
more than all the efforts you do to make it
your diet,
your exercises
more than the things that you could buy with money
your make up,
your beauty products,
your clothes,
your heels
More than everything

Yes,
It is Him
the one Who created you,
Who has died for you,
Who gives all the beauty you need

Now take the pills
Trust His love vitamin
get the nourishment for your heart, body, and soul
Trust the beauty within you

"You are altogether beautiful, My love, there's no flaw in you," -Sos 4:7

Percaya dan bergembiralah!

So there's some points of view (beyond so many views) about why should we trust, what God really wants about our trust in Him. 

We all know that to trust isn't easy. At first it may be easy, but to continue our trust, which is mean committed to keep trusting, well I can say that sometimes it isn't pleasant at all. 

Waktu kita memutuskan untuk percaya, kita sedang memutuskan untuk melepaskan segala hal yang menyakitkan, termasuk hal-hal yang udah buat kita seakan-akan 'nyaman'. 

"You can never be happy if you're always afraid to let go of what's comfortable. Sometimes, those are the things that hurt us."

1. Percaya adalah merelakan. Percaya adalah melepaskan. To trust is to let go of something good for something better. Ada kerelaan yang harus kita tanggung ketika Dia mengambil hal-hal tertentu dalam hidup kita, ketika kita memutuskan untuk percaya. 

Buat tetep percaya itu seringkali ngga enak. Percayalah, we have to know kalau Dia ngga mau kita terus tenggelam dalam segala perasaan yang ngga enak, sakit, pahit, dan segala broken feelings lainnya. 

2. Dia ngga mau kita cuma hanya percaya. Lebih dari itu, Dia mau kita percaya dan bergembira karena kepercayaan kita! Percaya adalah bergembira!To trust Him and to take delight on Him! 

Psalm 37

"Percayalah kepada Tuhan dan lakukanlah yang baik, 

    diamlah di negeri ini dan berlakulah setia,"

"dan bergembiralah karena Tuhan, 

    maka Dia akan memberikan kepadamu apa yang 

    diinginkan hatimu."

Percaya kalo Tuhan ngga pernah salah. 

Percaya kalo Dia sudah menyediakan yang terbaik, jauh lebih baik dari apa yang diinginkan hatimu sekarang, yang mungkin kamu anggap baik.

Percaya kalo Dia sanggup lakukan segala sesuatu yang sangat baik dalam hidupmu.

Percaya kalo Dia akan memuaskan hasratmu dengan kebaikan, that's why He loves you! He loves to delight His children in so many ways; also in our trust. 

Percaya kalo Tuhan itu ada dan lagi bekerja. 

Percaya, sekalipun kamu kehilangan segalanya yang kamu inginkan.

Percaya, sekalipun yang terjadi ngga seperti yang kamu harapkan.

Percaya kalau ketika kamu belum lihat janjiNya, berarti itu belum selesai.

Percaya kalau Dia mau liat kita bergembira karena kepercayaan kita.

There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind. - C.S. Lewis

Percaya dan Bergembiralah, bahkan dalam kerelaan kita untuk melepaskan semuanya ke tangan Tuhan! The best is yet to come! God wants us to be happy, to have our true happiness in Him, not in what the world offers. Make your choice today, and everyday: to be joyful, to be happy in your trust! :)) 

To get beauty is to trust beauty

I saw that pair of elegant heels, wore by a skinny mannequin with its both hands styled like she was knocking the window display and asking the people to buy the same heels she was wearing. It was me, outside a new branded shoes shop, where every woman dream is to get at least a heels from the shop. And yeah, almost like every woman will probably reacts, I stuck in front of the mannequin, and I was like "OH MY GOD can I just have the heels?" 

Nearly the same like when a little girl stuck in front of a toy shop, begging her mother to buy her a new cooking set wannabe. But a little girl is just a little girl, limited by one thing that she wants the most, and that's why she will beg her mother to buy it, once she get it, she'll be satisfied and won't ask for more. But as for me, I'm a grown up woman, and I think freakingly unlimited! 

"Can I just have all of the heels I want in this whole world and be able to wear it confidently, and walk smoothly like a runway model in ANTM seasons?"

Then, and then, it's not just about heels..... next to the shoes shop it was another mannequin, standing tall wearing a short dress with a bow on the waist, inside a glamorous boutique. I couldn't hold my eyes not to seeing it. I couldn't just run away from it. It was too eye catching, man. And I bet every woman will also choose to enter the door, looking for all the dress that sold there. Or at least, asking when there'll be a big sale. So I went in. I forgot the heels for awhile, and passionately looked for some mini dress that I wanted so bad. Mini dress could make my short tiny legs a little longer and taller, right? 

"If only I could buy both the heels and the dress, if only my body fits the dress, if only I have that mannequin body.... I must be a little prettier wearing it..."

But I left without buying anything. Women know how it feels to go home without buying anything they want. Alas, it's genuinely sucks, right? hahahaha I pretty know how it feels! You'll find yourselves squirmed insane on your bed, keep saying "I should've bought it" or "I want it but it didn't match for me" "I couldn't afford it" "I'm too weird to wear that, I'm not that beautiful to wear it" "I'll buy it later if it really makes me a little prettier" 

To cover up, too often we, as a woman, think that certain things have power to make us prettier, feel more beautiful, confident, valuable, and acceptable. It's not only about heels, dress, it can be the make up we're wearing everyday as our mask, it can be our diets, exercises that we are taking, it can be our skills. It happens right? And it's always hurting to realize that the more we think about it, the less beautiful we think we are. But why we pursue them, anyway? We try everything we can. 

Because all the world care is just to be pretty and acceptable in the outside, where inner beauty doesn't matter really much as long as you have your outer beauty. And sad to say but women trust the world. Women trust that those things really helpful to make them prettier. They give away their real beauty for those fleeting beauty. 

But seasons change, people change. The world change. The definition of 'beauty' are always changing, whenever there are new trendsetter come out and shouting that they have power to make you pretty and more pretty. On one day the magazine said "you'll be pretty when you wear this squared pattern skirt!" but on the other day they can even say, "squared pattern is outdated, now we welcome you the new beauty in this miniskirt!" and it'll always be like that, changing and changing in every season. You'll never know what a real beauty is. All you know is just a fleeting beauty that keep changing, so in order to stay pretty you have to follow all the rules of beauty that the world has. When you do it, you're happy, then when you can't fit in it, it hurts you. On some days you may seem to enjoy it, but look in the core of your heart... you're longing for a real, true beauty that can never be changed even by things.

It's not just you, it was me also, longing for a real beauty. 

I was addicted for a beauty. I didn't know what is a real beauty. I tried everything I can. I followed all the rules of beauty, till I feel that I really fit in. Once I felt I fit in, but on the other days, I was falling apart with the feeling of "still not good enough, still have to push myself harder" My days was full of ups and downs, I lost my joy, peace, and happiness the time I felt like I'm still not good enough. 

The time will come when after a very long journey, suffering from chasing your fleeting beauty, you'll find yourselves insanely tired of trusting what the world says is beautiful. Because all you need is a true beauty, a true love saying that you're really enough for who you are. 

"You always think that only a nice skirts, dress, heels, and make up could make you beautiful. You think that only some foods with balance diets and habitually exercises could make you beautiful. The TRUTH is, let Me tell you, My girl... those things didn't make you. Those things didn't create you, they even didn't design you... and they never will. 

I am the one who made you, I created you, I designed you, beautifully. You're altogether beautiful, My love, there's no flaw in you (SoS 4:7). I made you beautiful, and I could make you more beautiful inside and outside, 'cause I am the only one who knows how to beautify you, perfectly in My image, precious in My eyes. Never trust what the world says is beautiful, as the world only gives you fleeting and insecure beauty. I know how stress you're these days for keep chasing the world beauty, just because you trust them to give you that beauty. 

Stop it, don't put your trust on them anymore.

Trust me over everything you used to trust.

When you're stop longing for those heels, dress, or makeup, you're delighting Me in the way of putting your trust into action that those things has no power to design your beauty more than My Word has.

When you break the chain of your strict diets and you're start eating what the world says isn't supposed to be eaten as it's not a diet foods, you're delighting Me in the way of putting your trust into action that those foods has no power to shape your body more than my Word has.

When you're quitting yourself from that hard, excessive exercises, you're delighting Me in the way of putting your trust that those things also has no greater power to shape your body and your mind more than my Word and my TRUTH will ever do. Take a rest!

Okay, get My point? Your every TRUST in My Word will never be wasted, it's gonna be a miracle, a beauty for you. To get beauty is to trust the truth of beauty."