Strengthen

"Dan hatinya diperkuat dari hari ke hari, karna ia percaya akan janji Tuhan, karna ia menanti-nantikan Tuhan." 

 Great things come if you don't mind waiting. Psalms 27:4; "Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart," 

STRENGTHEN 💪💫

"They who trust Me will not only do what I'm doing but even greater things!" -John 14:12

Anchored, blessed, and strengthen in love. 

Your beauty is a gift

Your beauty is a gift; a blessing.
Kamu adalah bukti bagaimana Tuhan memberikan kecantikanmu sebagai anugrah di dalam hati, roh, dan jiwamu. Cantikmu bukanlah sesuatu yang harus kamu perjuangkan untuk kamu mendapatkannya. Toh segala usahamu akan sia-sia, semakin kamu berusaha menjadi cantik seperti yang dunia inginkan, semakin kamu ngga pernah merasa cukup dengan diri kamu sendiri.

He pours down all His love,
into your body,
your face,
your skin,
your heart,
and your soul,
making you beautiful,
FULL AND OVERFLOWING.

Trust the beauty within you.
Makanan apapun, diet, olahraga apapun ngga boleh mendefinisikan cantiknya kamu.
Semua usahamu ngga akan bisa menambahi atau mengurangi cantiknya kamu.

Mengerti dan pahami kalau Tuhan pakai semua bagian tubuhmu, inside and outside, all the details in you, hanya untuk mengekspresikan cintaNya buat kamu. Disinilah kamu harus menemukan cantiknya kamu. Lalu kenapa kamu harus khawatir dan ngga percaya sama diri kamu sendiri? :)

As for me, it's comforting to know how He uses all of me, my soul, my heart, and even every details of my body only to reflect His graciously love. I begin trusting the beauty within me. I let God's love to be in control of my beauty.

Let God's love to be in control of your beauty, too :)

Karna cantikmu adalah anugrahKu,

cantikmu adalah tentang bagaimana aku menumpahkan seluruh kasihKu kepadamu,

dalam hatimu, rohmu, dan jiwamu.

cantikmu adalah anugrah yang ngga akan bisa hilang, ditambah, atau dikurangi. 

dan prosesKu yang menyempurnakan semuanya. 

The Love Vitamin

Jesus' love has poured out  through  the cross
giving you the only nourishment for your soul
a love vitamin that nourishes all of your heart,
your soul,
and your body.
to create in you the authentic beauty,
revealed in His graciously love

A beauty that is more than a perfection
more than your physical appearances
your skin,
your hair,
your waistline,
your thighs,
more than all the efforts you do to make it
your diet,
your exercises
more than the things that you could buy with money
your make up,
your beauty products,
your clothes,
your heels
More than everything

Yes,
It is Him
the one Who created you,
Who has died for you,
Who gives all the beauty you need

Now take the pills
Trust His love vitamin
get the nourishment for your heart, body, and soul
Trust the beauty within you

"You are altogether beautiful, My love, there's no flaw in you," -Sos 4:7

Percaya dan bergembiralah!

So there's some points of view (beyond so many views) about why should we trust, what God really wants about our trust in Him. 

We all know that to trust isn't easy. At first it may be easy, but to continue our trust, which is mean committed to keep trusting, well I can say that sometimes it isn't pleasant at all. 

Waktu kita memutuskan untuk percaya, kita sedang memutuskan untuk melepaskan segala hal yang menyakitkan, termasuk hal-hal yang udah buat kita seakan-akan 'nyaman'. 

"You can never be happy if you're always afraid to let go of what's comfortable. Sometimes, those are the things that hurt us."

1. Percaya adalah merelakan. Percaya adalah melepaskan. To trust is to let go of something good for something better. Ada kerelaan yang harus kita tanggung ketika Dia mengambil hal-hal tertentu dalam hidup kita, ketika kita memutuskan untuk percaya. 

Buat tetep percaya itu seringkali ngga enak. Percayalah, we have to know kalau Dia ngga mau kita terus tenggelam dalam segala perasaan yang ngga enak, sakit, pahit, dan segala broken feelings lainnya. 

2. Dia ngga mau kita cuma hanya percaya. Lebih dari itu, Dia mau kita percaya dan bergembira karena kepercayaan kita! Percaya adalah bergembira!To trust Him and to take delight on Him! 

Psalm 37

"Percayalah kepada Tuhan dan lakukanlah yang baik, 

    diamlah di negeri ini dan berlakulah setia,"

"dan bergembiralah karena Tuhan, 

    maka Dia akan memberikan kepadamu apa yang 

    diinginkan hatimu."

Percaya kalo Tuhan ngga pernah salah. 

Percaya kalo Dia sudah menyediakan yang terbaik, jauh lebih baik dari apa yang diinginkan hatimu sekarang, yang mungkin kamu anggap baik.

Percaya kalo Dia sanggup lakukan segala sesuatu yang sangat baik dalam hidupmu.

Percaya kalo Dia akan memuaskan hasratmu dengan kebaikan, that's why He loves you! He loves to delight His children in so many ways; also in our trust. 

Percaya kalo Tuhan itu ada dan lagi bekerja. 

Percaya, sekalipun kamu kehilangan segalanya yang kamu inginkan.

Percaya, sekalipun yang terjadi ngga seperti yang kamu harapkan.

Percaya kalau ketika kamu belum lihat janjiNya, berarti itu belum selesai.

Percaya kalau Dia mau liat kita bergembira karena kepercayaan kita.

There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind. - C.S. Lewis

Percaya dan Bergembiralah, bahkan dalam kerelaan kita untuk melepaskan semuanya ke tangan Tuhan! The best is yet to come! God wants us to be happy, to have our true happiness in Him, not in what the world offers. Make your choice today, and everyday: to be joyful, to be happy in your trust! :)) 

To get beauty is to trust beauty

I saw that pair of elegant heels, wore by a skinny mannequin with its both hands styled like she was knocking the window display and asking the people to buy the same heels she was wearing. It was me, outside a new branded shoes shop, where every woman dream is to get at least a heels from the shop. And yeah, almost like every woman will probably reacts, I stuck in front of the mannequin, and I was like "OH MY GOD can I just have the heels?" 

Nearly the same like when a little girl stuck in front of a toy shop, begging her mother to buy her a new cooking set wannabe. But a little girl is just a little girl, limited by one thing that she wants the most, and that's why she will beg her mother to buy it, once she get it, she'll be satisfied and won't ask for more. But as for me, I'm a grown up woman, and I think freakingly unlimited! 

"Can I just have all of the heels I want in this whole world and be able to wear it confidently, and walk smoothly like a runway model in ANTM seasons?"

Then, and then, it's not just about heels..... next to the shoes shop it was another mannequin, standing tall wearing a short dress with a bow on the waist, inside a glamorous boutique. I couldn't hold my eyes not to seeing it. I couldn't just run away from it. It was too eye catching, man. And I bet every woman will also choose to enter the door, looking for all the dress that sold there. Or at least, asking when there'll be a big sale. So I went in. I forgot the heels for awhile, and passionately looked for some mini dress that I wanted so bad. Mini dress could make my short tiny legs a little longer and taller, right? 

"If only I could buy both the heels and the dress, if only my body fits the dress, if only I have that mannequin body.... I must be a little prettier wearing it..."

But I left without buying anything. Women know how it feels to go home without buying anything they want. Alas, it's genuinely sucks, right? hahahaha I pretty know how it feels! You'll find yourselves squirmed insane on your bed, keep saying "I should've bought it" or "I want it but it didn't match for me" "I couldn't afford it" "I'm too weird to wear that, I'm not that beautiful to wear it" "I'll buy it later if it really makes me a little prettier" 

To cover up, too often we, as a woman, think that certain things have power to make us prettier, feel more beautiful, confident, valuable, and acceptable. It's not only about heels, dress, it can be the make up we're wearing everyday as our mask, it can be our diets, exercises that we are taking, it can be our skills. It happens right? And it's always hurting to realize that the more we think about it, the less beautiful we think we are. But why we pursue them, anyway? We try everything we can. 

Because all the world care is just to be pretty and acceptable in the outside, where inner beauty doesn't matter really much as long as you have your outer beauty. And sad to say but women trust the world. Women trust that those things really helpful to make them prettier. They give away their real beauty for those fleeting beauty. 

But seasons change, people change. The world change. The definition of 'beauty' are always changing, whenever there are new trendsetter come out and shouting that they have power to make you pretty and more pretty. On one day the magazine said "you'll be pretty when you wear this squared pattern skirt!" but on the other day they can even say, "squared pattern is outdated, now we welcome you the new beauty in this miniskirt!" and it'll always be like that, changing and changing in every season. You'll never know what a real beauty is. All you know is just a fleeting beauty that keep changing, so in order to stay pretty you have to follow all the rules of beauty that the world has. When you do it, you're happy, then when you can't fit in it, it hurts you. On some days you may seem to enjoy it, but look in the core of your heart... you're longing for a real, true beauty that can never be changed even by things.

It's not just you, it was me also, longing for a real beauty. 

I was addicted for a beauty. I didn't know what is a real beauty. I tried everything I can. I followed all the rules of beauty, till I feel that I really fit in. Once I felt I fit in, but on the other days, I was falling apart with the feeling of "still not good enough, still have to push myself harder" My days was full of ups and downs, I lost my joy, peace, and happiness the time I felt like I'm still not good enough. 

The time will come when after a very long journey, suffering from chasing your fleeting beauty, you'll find yourselves insanely tired of trusting what the world says is beautiful. Because all you need is a true beauty, a true love saying that you're really enough for who you are. 

"You always think that only a nice skirts, dress, heels, and make up could make you beautiful. You think that only some foods with balance diets and habitually exercises could make you beautiful. The TRUTH is, let Me tell you, My girl... those things didn't make you. Those things didn't create you, they even didn't design you... and they never will. 

I am the one who made you, I created you, I designed you, beautifully. You're altogether beautiful, My love, there's no flaw in you (SoS 4:7). I made you beautiful, and I could make you more beautiful inside and outside, 'cause I am the only one who knows how to beautify you, perfectly in My image, precious in My eyes. Never trust what the world says is beautiful, as the world only gives you fleeting and insecure beauty. I know how stress you're these days for keep chasing the world beauty, just because you trust them to give you that beauty. 

Stop it, don't put your trust on them anymore.

Trust me over everything you used to trust.

When you're stop longing for those heels, dress, or makeup, you're delighting Me in the way of putting your trust into action that those things has no power to design your beauty more than My Word has.

When you break the chain of your strict diets and you're start eating what the world says isn't supposed to be eaten as it's not a diet foods, you're delighting Me in the way of putting your trust into action that those foods has no power to shape your body more than my Word has.

When you're quitting yourself from that hard, excessive exercises, you're delighting Me in the way of putting your trust that those things also has no greater power to shape your body and your mind more than my Word and my TRUTH will ever do. Take a rest!

Okay, get My point? Your every TRUST in My Word will never be wasted, it's gonna be a miracle, a beauty for you. To get beauty is to trust the truth of beauty." 

Semuanya buat mereka.

Seringkali, dan hampir setiap hari saya minta Tuhan untuk menjadikan hidup saya berarti untuk orang lain. Saya berdoa supaya saya bisa menjadi blessings untuk mereka; setiap orang yang saya temui, yang saya sapa, saya ajak bicara, dan semuanya yang saya bisa lakukan buat mereka. 

Saya pikir, Dia akan pakai saya lewat perkataan dan perbuatan saya saja. 

Saya pikir, Dia akan beri saya kata-kata yang manis dan penuh kasih karunia, perbuatan yang menolong dan meringankan beban orang lain, dan hanya sebatas itu saja. 

Not as what I've expected, hari demi hari Dia kasih saya begitu banyak beban berat dan masalah.

Problems, pains, heartbreaks, tears, semua hal yang tak terelakkan ada setiap harinya.

Membuat saya berjuang dengan sangat keras, belajar dengan sangat keras, karena saya ingin keluar dari semua persoalan saya. 

Saya begitu fokus memikirkan bagaimana saya harus keluar dari masalah-masalah saya, hingga saya berpikir, "Tuhan, bagaimana saya bisa memberkati orang lain kalau saya sendiri tak cukup hebat untuk menolong diri saya?"

Then after all, when I dig deeper than that, Tuhan cuma bilang:

"Kamu minta Aku supaya kamu bisa memberkati orang lain, tapi kamu selalu mengeluh dan bertindak lemah setiap kali Aku biarkan masalah terjadi, setiap kali Aku biarkan kamu merasakan rasa sakit itu. Kamu kira ketika kamu berhasil mengatasi beban dan sakitmu, itu hanya akan mendewasakan kamu, membuat kamu lebih kuat? Hanya sebatas itu? Tidak sama sekali. Semua rasa sakit kamu, pada akhirnya tidak digunakan untuk kehebatan kamu. Itu untuk orang lain."

dan sekarang, hari ini saya mengerti. Terlalu dangkal buat masih berpikir dan memusatkan tujuan kalau semuanya akan kembali untuk kehebatan saya, kekuatan saya, atau bahkan kedewasaan saya. Setiap rasa sakit saya, masalah saya, beban saya, air mata saya, semuanya.... bukan untuk menguntungkan hidup saya pada akhirnya nanti, bukan untuk membuat saya lebih hebat. Tapi semuanya akan saya beri untuk oranglain... bagaimana hari ini saya investasikan semua itu dengan iman dan kepercayaan penuh, bagaimana Tuhan akan mengubah setiap rasa sakit ini menjadi blessings buat setiap mereka yang saya temui, karena mereka akan mencari orang-orang yang pernah dan bisa merasakan rasa sakit mereka. 

:) God turns pains into blessings, and all for the glory of God.

Dear fighter...

Does it hurt you that you feel like you can't hold it anymore? Are you feeling tired of all these war? 
Some of you may tired for all these process, all the healing progress, the recovering that seems to take forever... You stand, you fall, you get up, then you find yourselves again falling. Failing. Drowning. Dying. 

Get enough of it. 
This is another turning point, the next level of your turning point. 
Yes this is the pain of healing, the pain of recovering... Yet the blessings that abound. 
YES. 
You are healed. You are recovered. You have won it all.
It is not because you are not failing. It is not because you are not falling again. 
It is not because you are gaining something.
It is not the matter of all your issues, or all you have been through, or all you have done. 
It is the matter of your heart, your feelings, your emotions.
Your heart matters the most to Him. 
And He did, He took the war and won it for you. 
His cross, His blood already did it all to heal your pain, to free you. 
His love will always breaks your fall, you can't doubt it.
Stop doubting and TRUST.


You will get through this. 
Better days are ahead.
Some days are harder than this.
You have God. 

Be still. 
Don't give up.
Keep fighting.
You are a fighter.