No measurement of beauty

There is no measurement of beauty, no exact tools to define your worth.
The first moment God created woman, He said she was all good, without any measurement. Without any scale. Without any make up. Without fancy wardrobe.
She was already good, the way she was. Too good, as He had put beauty in everything she was.

God loves creating beautiful things, and He creates beauty in each woman.
He creates beauty in you. Just the way you are.
And you don't need to try hard to protect your beauty,
either with strict diet,
or heavy make up tools
either with fancy clothes,
or beautiful heels.
either with all your thoughts, worries, and securities that you have been preaching to feed your soul these days, just because you want to measure your beauty and to keep your beauty safely.

Stop doing and start trusting.

God has the beauty within you, and God protects your beauty Himself.
Why?
Because your beauty belongs to God.
Your worth is found in Him,
and it should be returned for His glory. it is not yours.

I have His kind of beauty inside of my soul

And His beauty is forever secure in me

I will trust Him and not my foods

I will trust Him and not my thoughts,

not even my scale

not my own definition and measurement

I will trust Him and nothing else

And I will use this beauty so others can see,

how beautiful my God is. 

There is grace....

I've never felt a moment when I do really, desperately need the one essential thing He always have for me... His grace. These past times, I had always known that I need grace, in everything I do, I know I'm gonna need it when I get problems, and in times of troubles, simply when I ask, He gives. But that's it. As for me, there is no more about grace other than this cliché thing.

Now,
There is this truth: You'll never know where you stand til you realize that you are not standing anymore. you are falling. and the pain feels real. it hurts like it was never before. and these days, it comes to me like I'm drowning. in the sea of nowhere, and I just knew I'm not standing; even before I realize I've been falling, and drowning so deep.

Before this happened, I've always thought that I'm completely okay, there is nothing wrong with me. Sometimes I have problems but it's all feel okay, and I just thought God is here. Period. But then... the moment I know I've been falling so hard, I know He is still here, standing; but I'm not there with Him.

I've been walking all alone without Him. that's why grace feels cliché in my heart. even my soul cannot grasp what it means to experience grace.

finally all I know is this: I'M DROWNING AND I AM IN CONSTANT NEED OF GRACE.

This literally happened once all i feel was emptiness. loneliness . sickness. tiredness. hopelessness. I was depressed. I didn't have any reason to feel good and enough about myself. Didn't have any to be proud of. everything was missing. I lost my pride, my stand, and myself. I've been thinking I've lost His grace the moment I wasn't standing with Him anymore, the moment I felt completely okay with myself.

I am in constant need of grace.
But He shows me; that grace isn't there only in my times of troubles or needs. grace is here, inside of me, and everywhere, and every moment... and I never lose it.

There is grace in everything I do.
There is grace in whatever I eat,
grace in whatever I wear,
grace in my walking,
grace in my running,
grace in my speaking,
grace in my struggling
There is even grace in my smile,
and grace in my eyes, in my hopeless tears.
There is grace in my love towards myself,
and my love towards others.

There is beautiful grace in my face. and my skin. my body. my feet. my hands. and more grace inside my soul and my heart. grace in everything I am, in everything I do.
grace in who I am these past days. grace in who I am today, and in who I am tomorrow.
that I don't need to ask or to beg Him for His grace.
I'm in constant need of grace, but my life and everything in it is a grace already.
I have grace the moment I don't have anything.
I may not stand with Him these past days, but now I know His grace stands, and now grace is standing and fighting my battle of pain. And I'm gonna win. Grace will put everything back to its places, the place where I belong: His love, His arms. and His providence.

"My grace is sufficient for you..." - 2 Cor 12:9

To love the way He loves

"Mengasihi diriku sebagaimana Dia mencintaiku adalah mengerti dan percaya bahwa apa adanya diriku sudah begitu menyukakan hati Tuhan, ngga perlu ditambah atau dikurangi.   

CintaNya buatku begitu ingin untuk menyukakan hatiNya dengan apa ada nya aku, dengan segala kekurangan dan kelebihanku. 

CintaNya buatku berhenti menuntut dan meminta lebih, karena aku tahu, aku ngga perlu meminta apapun, mengubah apapun dari diriku untuk Dia mengasihi aku. 

CintaNya buatku mengerti, betapa kasihNya selalu baru setiap hari, mengalir dari dalam setiap sel-sel darahku; terdengar begitu lembut dalam setiap detak jantung dan denyut nadiku; dan memancar keluar, sempurna, lewat apa adanya diriku yang begitu menyenangkan hatiNya :) 

CintaNya buatku melihat, betapa aku ngga akan pernah punya alasan untuk nggak mengasihi diriku; betapa apa adanya diriku ini akan selalu berhasil mengukir senyum yang manis di wajahNya."

God's kind of beautiful

I believe everyone has their own beauty.

And I have my own, which God has added to me (as it was supposed to be) while He created me. 

and it's not the kind of beauty that all the girls probably have. 

it is not the kind of beauty that the world might have always wanted, from times to times. 

this is literally a God's kind of beauty. 

The perfectly perfect love upon me, that makes me beautiful, the way God says it has to.

All the thoughts and the love He is pouring over me, they are all overflowing. 

I have never realized it this much before, and never will I get to understand how much they are.

and how much they have been working until now, and surely forever. 

God has never stopped. and He would not stop to do it. 

He wouldn't stop to remind me how beautiful I am, how perfect I am in my imperfection. 

He would never get tired of this. 

And I know, it's His job to keep checking His to-do-list everyday if He has reminded me of this simply great thing, or whether some time He has to push Himself a little hard to remind me, to make me believe in His beauty upon me. 

There are times when I can simply believe in this kind of beauty.
But even the most calming sea will always has its own waves.
It's hard, most of the time to believe that I have my own beauty, beside all my circumstances.
and I believe this is what everyone, every girl has always been fighting for. 
But God understands. *remember His to-do-list? :)

I am not designed like the others

I don't have what they are all may have

and maybe I will not have what they'll always have.

I don't know. only God knows what I have now, what 'am going to have soon or later.

But one thing true, 

I'm glad He made me realize that I have to believe that I'm enough.

and I'm glad He teaches me to trust my belief, to trust my own beauty. 

It's not me that could make myself beautiful. It's God. 'cause it's not my kind of beautiful. The beauty that God have added to me, it's simply God's kind of beautiful. 

Strengthen

"Dan hatinya diperkuat dari hari ke hari, karna ia percaya akan janji Tuhan, karna ia menanti-nantikan Tuhan." 

 Great things come if you don't mind waiting. Psalms 27:4; "Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart," 

STRENGTHEN 💪💫

"They who trust Me will not only do what I'm doing but even greater things!" -John 14:12

Anchored, blessed, and strengthen in love. 

Your beauty is a gift

Your beauty is a gift; a blessing.
Kamu adalah bukti bagaimana Tuhan memberikan kecantikanmu sebagai anugrah di dalam hati, roh, dan jiwamu. Cantikmu bukanlah sesuatu yang harus kamu perjuangkan untuk kamu mendapatkannya. Toh segala usahamu akan sia-sia, semakin kamu berusaha menjadi cantik seperti yang dunia inginkan, semakin kamu ngga pernah merasa cukup dengan diri kamu sendiri.

He pours down all His love,
into your body,
your face,
your skin,
your heart,
and your soul,
making you beautiful,
FULL AND OVERFLOWING.

Trust the beauty within you.
Makanan apapun, diet, olahraga apapun ngga boleh mendefinisikan cantiknya kamu.
Semua usahamu ngga akan bisa menambahi atau mengurangi cantiknya kamu.

Mengerti dan pahami kalau Tuhan pakai semua bagian tubuhmu, inside and outside, all the details in you, hanya untuk mengekspresikan cintaNya buat kamu. Disinilah kamu harus menemukan cantiknya kamu. Lalu kenapa kamu harus khawatir dan ngga percaya sama diri kamu sendiri? :)

As for me, it's comforting to know how He uses all of me, my soul, my heart, and even every details of my body only to reflect His graciously love. I begin trusting the beauty within me. I let God's love to be in control of my beauty.

Let God's love to be in control of your beauty, too :)

Karna cantikmu adalah anugrahKu,

cantikmu adalah tentang bagaimana aku menumpahkan seluruh kasihKu kepadamu,

dalam hatimu, rohmu, dan jiwamu.

cantikmu adalah anugrah yang ngga akan bisa hilang, ditambah, atau dikurangi. 

dan prosesKu yang menyempurnakan semuanya. 

The Love Vitamin

Jesus' love has poured out  through  the cross
giving you the only nourishment for your soul
a love vitamin that nourishes all of your heart,
your soul,
and your body.
to create in you the authentic beauty,
revealed in His graciously love

A beauty that is more than a perfection
more than your physical appearances
your skin,
your hair,
your waistline,
your thighs,
more than all the efforts you do to make it
your diet,
your exercises
more than the things that you could buy with money
your make up,
your beauty products,
your clothes,
your heels
More than everything

Yes,
It is Him
the one Who created you,
Who has died for you,
Who gives all the beauty you need

Now take the pills
Trust His love vitamin
get the nourishment for your heart, body, and soul
Trust the beauty within you

"You are altogether beautiful, My love, there's no flaw in you," -Sos 4:7